“Introverts may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.”—Susan Cain
I can’t stress how badly I want people to stop trying to save me and just listen. Not give me advice or suggest about something that they don’t understand or haven’t experienced first hand. Just listen . Be there to hold my hand or hug me when the anxiety attacks get worse. Stand beside me when I’m scared to death of myself or my next action. Let me release everything I’ve kept inside that’s been eating me alive all this time when I’m able. Let me vent and rant and scream and cry and exhaust myself until I fall asleep. That’s all I ever want of any of my loved ones.
Another piece of me was taken last night, when another friend gave up on his fight and took himself away from here. We shared so many of the same struggles, and suffered all the same, but had so many wonderful memories. Now I have someone else to miss until the next lifetime.
I truly hope you know that you are loved by so many, my brother. These are now for you.