I’m not sure if it’s a function of advancing age or just the times we’re living in, but it’s almost impossible for me to find complete external validation in any one thought, desire, instinct or vision anymore.
Who do you want to be exactly like? Is there anybody in this world who’s laid down a template for your dreams and goals that you’d copy and paste over your own life’s story? Maybe you want to go to a music college as I did when I decided to attend Berklee College of Music in Boston. Start asking some alums whether it’s worth it and you’ll get two distinct answers. One half of the control group will tell you it’s not worth it, that you might as well just start a band and hit the road. The other half will tell you that it was the flash point for their music career and that without it they’d be nowhere. The answer depends on the experience had by each person you talk to. Maybe the “Nos” spent their semesters curled up in a ball fighting with their boyfriend or girlfriend on the phone and never applied themselves to making the most of the time there. You’ll never find the answer you want, just information with which to build your own idea and chart your own course.
Take your favorite artist, the one you look up to and see as the perfect specimen of talent, values, output, whatever the case may be - and someone else has a reason why they’re not worth even a passing glance. Is “Bob Dylan: Don’t Look Back” the documentary of a genius iconoclast or was he a self absorbed pseudo-intellectual bully? It depends on who you ask. Is Jay-Z the reigning king of hip hop or is he “all business” now? It depends on who you ask. I bring up both names because if you ask me, I put them at the top of my list of people who can do very little if no wrong at all, but it won’t take long to read someone’s opposing point of view. If you’re not sure of what you love, that means you can be talked out of it, and that’s a slippery slope.
Is your boyfriend cute? Was Hurt Locker the best movie of the year? Are you going to go out in those shoes? Should you take the promotion and move to Boston? Did I wear “Hammer” pants on stage in Houston or is Rick Owens a visionary clothing designer?
It all depends on who you ask.
Which is a pretty great reason to stop asking all together. Nobody’s life template will ever lay evenly over yours. And in those times when they clash completely, you have to walk alone, with confidence that you’re creating your own template, made out of your own instincts and your own dreams and your own goals. And if you do it long enough, maybe someone someday will look to yours as the life to model theirs after. Of course, some people won’t agree with them. It will all depend on who they ask.
I just checked out your MySpace page, and I saw that you’re going to be making roadtrips to the San Antonio, Houston, and Dallas dates for Warped Tour this year… My friends Celeste, Joeallan, Toya and I were going to be taking a road trip to those shows as well (We’re calling it the EmoTrip).
It would be awesome to hang with you on those dates! ^_^
hell yes! i’ll be helping promote with Skyscrapers Walk Among Us and Sparks The Rescue (: It will be three days of hell (temperature wise) but it will be worth it! What bands are you going to see?
Awesome! I have about 30 bands I want to see, and I’ll be out there to support my friends’ clothing lines and my band and photography. I know a lot of people I know are gonna be at the Houston show, so it’ll be like a big family reunion for us! HAHA
I’ve been doing some major reconstructing to my band’s MySpace website. I’m actually getting the hang of the web and graphic design schick, so I’m pretty happy about that. So far though, this is as far as I’ve gotten.
(Okay, just a thought, but I think the creators of Poke’mon are running out of good ideas for naming their games…)
Okay, this is for all you Nintendo and Poke’mon nerds our there (that including myself). Anybody else (besides myself and a few others) remember the Pocket Pikachu that came out way back when? Well, they’ve decided to bring that back, but with a different name: Poke’walkers. It actually looks really neat (and it’s a Poke’mon cosplayers wet dream). Check out the article for more info. :)